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 stay a little longer ,, olivia. & hadley

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Jan 16 2017, 03:08 PM         Quote        
chase should have known better than to think that he could avoid this conversation. it had been over four years of them spending all their time together and never getting serious with anyone else, it was a wonder how this didn't happen earlier. though, if he wasn't mature enough to deal with it now he definitely wouldn't have been able to before. but with all the time they spent together, they'd had some more intimate moments and the fact that they never revealed anything, even drunk, showed just how stubborn they were. he had almost forgotten this all started because she was getting back together with scott and he wasn't sure how she could still want to get back with him after this. "do you really want to be with him? or are you just doing it because you didn't think i wanted to be with you?" he wasn't trying to make it a trick question or make her uncomfortable and he definitely didn't want to upset her. he genuinely wanted to know because the thought that he was practically pushing her into the arms of someone who cheated on her made him a little nauseous.
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Jan 16 2017, 05:05 PM         Quote        
in some ways it was hard to believe they'd never had this conversation after having known each other for four years, but at the same time it wasn't all that surprising. neither one of them wanted to initiate it, and their whole arrangement worked out well enough in college that they didn't feel the need to question it. it wasn't until they graduated that hadley became increasingly dissatisfied with their situation, but didn't want to jeopardize their friendship and bring it up. that combined with the fear of being rejected by chase, which would've forced her to acknowledge just how serious her feelings for him were. hadley chewed on her lower lip in disbelief that chase had really asked her that. "of course i actually want to be with him," she said, a little defensive about having to verify her feelings for him. "but i guess it was just easier when we first started dating because he was really clear about what he wanted and i didn't know how you felt."


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Jan 16 2017, 06:52 PM         Quote        
part of chase wondered if this is where hadley wanted the conversation to go the entire time. she didn't seem to enjoy talking about it either, but now they were both talking about something they had avoided for years. he wasn't conceited enough to think that hadley had just been waiting for him to admit to having feelings for this entire time and that's why she never seriously dated anyone before scott. he also didn't think that this conversation would suddenly change her mind about getting back together with him. but at the same time, she couldn't deny that it sort of came off that way. "so, this doesn't change anything?" he clarified slowly, raising his eyebrows at her.
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Jan 16 2017, 07:30 PM         Quote        
part of hadley felt relieved that they were finally discussing this and the other part of her mostly just wanted to throw up. now she remembered why they'd avoided this conversation for so many years. it was much, much easier that way. she felt more vulnerable than she anticipated, especially considering she had started the conversation by effectively ending whatever was going on between her and chase. but now she'd pretty much put all her cards on the table, and all she'd gotten back from him was that he "didn't not' want to be with her, whatever that meant. even when she and scott were dating again, chase was going to know that hadley most likely still had feelings for him, which made her feel dumber than ever. chase knew how she felt, and it'd hardly changed anything between them, so of course it wasn't going to change anything between her and scott. her brow creased as she looked at him. everything he said was short and only served to confuse her more. "why would it?" she asked honestly.


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Jan 16 2017, 08:27 PM         Quote        
chase didn't think that he had to explain to hadley that it would be a bit strange for her to practically admit to having feelings for him and then go and date scott as if this never happened. it at least cleared up the reasoning behind why she couldn't talk to him when she was with scott, but it didn't make him accept it any more than he had before. her relationship with scott was hard to swallow as it was but now it would almost be unbearable. it seemed like her mind was set and he got the feeling that even if he committed to her right then and there she wouldn't change her decision. "i don't know," he practically mumbled, suddenly feeling insecure about the whole situation. "i guess because if you kind of have feelings for me it doesn't really make sense."
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Jan 16 2017, 10:46 PM         Quote        
hadley didn't completely understand what chase was asking of her. she knew it was definitely pretty weird to have had this conversation and still be getting back together with scott, but she also didn't know what other choice she had. the whole reason she'd started dating scott in the first place was because she felt like she needed to move on and he was giving her the chance to do that. obviously, things became more complicated when he cheated on her, but hadley still cared about him and scott seemed adamant about wanting to be in a relationship with her, so she was willing to give it another try. as far as chase was concerned, though, she didn't know what to say. even if he told her he'd changed his mind and really wanted to be with her, she didn't think it would work. they'd had years to make things work before this, and yet they never did. besides, it wasn't like chase was telling her anything other than that he didn't want her to get back together with scott. "i guess i'm just trying to get over you." hadley said quietly.


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Jan 16 2017, 11:50 PM         Quote        
chase didn't know why he could just tell her that he had feelings for her. maybe he knew that even if he said it, he didn't know if he was really the right guy for her, or maybe he was scared that he was and he would fuck it up. or maybe he was just scared that she'd still choose scott over him. regardless, he just couldn't bring himself to say it. even when she said she was trying to get over him and he felt his heart sink and his mouth dry, he still couldn't. he didn't want her to get over him, not in the slightest. but she wanted someone who was open with her and absolutely wanted a relationship and evidently that was scott. even if wanted to convince her that he'd be a much better boyfriend, he probably couldn't because he had four years to prove that to her and he didn't, at least not in the way she wanted. he was silent for what felt like forever, finally nodding gently. "if that's what you really want," he said carefully, his voice so low that i was almost hard to get it all out. "i won't text you..or bother you or anything." he cleared his throat as he took a step back, trying to distance himself and not sound so goddamn pathetic as his eyes shifted downward. "i'll make it easy for you."
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Jan 17 2017, 12:08 AM         Quote        
all things considered, this was probably the way the conversation was supposed to go. she'd come here to tell chase that she and scott were getting back together, and now hadley was finally going to get a clean break from him. it wasn't like she'd gone into it hoping that if she told him how she really felt, he'd admit he felt the same and things would finally work out between them. but there was a little part of her that hoped that maybe she'd been wrong all along. of course, she hadn't been, and rather than returning the sentiment chase told her he was going to give her space. she should've been happy, because she was going to get to work things out with scott and actually be in a stable relationship, but she couldn't help feeling disappointed as chase responded, eyes cast down. "it's never going to be easy for me." she corrected, voice quiet. hadley bit down on the inside of her cheek, trying to ignore the lump growing in her throat. "but yeah, i mean.. i think that'd be for the best." she said unconvincingly. hadley stayed quiet for a few moments, chewing on her lower lip the way she always did when she was nervous. she took a deep breath before looking up at him again. "at least you won't have to carry my drunk ass home anymore, right?" hadley said with a smile, laughing a little to lighten the mood.


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Jan 17 2017, 01:12 AM         Quote        
what started off as wanting her not to date scott and if she did, not cut him out, was now chase having pretty much no hope for ever having any kind of relationship with her again. he didn't see how they were supposed to just be friends after this. she didn't want to hook up and she had feelings for him, but wanted to get over them. if they ever had the opportunity to build a relationship again it was bound to be awkward, so it really never would be the same between them. hadley had been his best friend all through college, the sex paled in comparison to the rest of their relationship. he wasn't exactly sure how he was supposed to live a separate life from her. she didn't seem fully convinced that this was the best decision, he could tell by the way she was biting on her lip, but she didn't argue. she wanted to end on a more positive note, and he ultimately did too, but it was difficult for him to fake. he forced a small, side smile as he looked down at her. "i never really minded," he admitted. "i liked knowing you got home okay." he gave her a small shrug, shoving his hands into his pockets. "but now that's scott's job, so" he shrugged again, rocking back and forth on his feet as he debated whether he should head toward the door or wait to see if she had anything else to say.
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Jan 17 2017, 12:24 PM         Quote        
hadley didn't really know where to go from here. she could barely remember what her life was like before chase was in it because they were so close for all of college. most of her girl friends thought their friendship was kind of unorthodox and always predicted that something like this would happen, and hadley hated to acknowledge the fact that they were right. she also didn't want to think about what would've happened if chase was right, too. she wanted to believe that scott wasn't going to cheat on her again, but there was no way to know for sure. she hated to think that she wouldn't have chase to turn to, but then again, she knew if she kept relying on chase for everything she'd just keep wanting something from him that was never going to happen. "don't start being nice about it now," she teased with a little smile, though she wasn't really joking. part of her wondered if this would be easier if he just acted like a dick. "he doesn't really seem to enjoy holding my hair back, for whatever reason." hadley laughed. scott tended to have a lower tolerance for putting up with hadley's shit than chase did. she noticed chase rocking back and forth on his feet, knowing he was probably dying to get out of there and end this awkward conversation. she knew that was probably for the best, but she also knew that once he walked out he wasn't going to come back and somehow she wasn't really ready to let that happen yet.


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Jan 17 2017, 02:33 PM         Quote        
even though this conversation was bound to happen at some point, that didn't make it any easier for chase to accept. he was sure that as hard as this conversation and realization was, it would be even more difficult to actually not have her in his life. it all felt much more dramatic than anything he had ever had to deal with and it just reminded him of why he didn't like relationships to begin with. he knew the comment about scott was supposed to be lighthearted, but he wished she hadn't said it at all. it wasn't like chase liked taking care of her when she got too drunk, but it was mostly just because he didn't like seeing her so upset. it wasn't exactly comforting to know that her boyfriend tried to get out of it. but he refrained from making a comment about it, and nodded instead. "yeah," he said, deciding not to really acknowledge the statement. "i, um...i guess i should go then." he scratched the back of his neck, clearing his throat again. "good luck with..everything and i'll uh, i'll see you around." he sincerely meant it, it wasn't like he wanted scott to cheat on her again. but he had never felt so uncomfortable around her and it felt ridiculous to say any kind of closing statements to her.
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Jan 18 2017, 03:49 PM         Quote        
chase hadn't even walked out the door yet and hadley already had the sinking feeling that he was right about everything. how was she supposed to turn around and get back together with scott after she'd finally acknowledged the fact that she wanted to be with chase? it made no sense, except for the fact that it was hadley's idea to "get over" chase. chase looked visibly tense, and hadley couldn't really blame him. this was probably exactly what he was hoping to avoid. situations like this were the reason they'd never even tried to be together in the first place. "okay, yeah, right," hadley nodded quickly, fully aware of how stupid it was that she'd just told him they could never be friends and yet she really didn't want him to leave. but at the same time, she really couldn't imagine her life without chase in it, and now that she was being faced with that reality it was harder to swallow than she'd thought. "um, yeah, thanks." she felt a lump growing in her throat as she stepped forwardly impulsively to hug him, then hesitated and stepped back. her eyes started to well up as she grew overwhelmed with the sheer awkwardness of it all and wondered how they'd ended up here. "shit," she laughed to alleviate some of the tension, swiping at her eye quickly as if that would somehow prevent him from seeing. of all the embarrassing things she'd done in front of chase, particularly puking, crying was not one of them. "i don't know why i'm being so dramatic today." she laughed again, rolling her eyes.


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Jan 18 2017, 11:34 PM         Quote        
chase was ready to accept hadley's hug when she stepped away, taking a deep breath as he saw her face drop. he had never seen hadley cry, not even close, so he almost didn't even recognize that that's what was happening when her eyes started to water. he was such a fucking idiot. why did he have to keep pushing everything? he didn't want her to date scott and he didn't want her to cut her out again, but it didn't even matter. even if he was trying to be stubborn by saying he wouldn't talk to her after she ignored, he knew he wasn't that strong. and even if he was, she was bound to try to mend the friendship if she and scott broke up. now he fucked it up and he couldn't even tell her the real reason why. he just let her bare her heart (or at least enough for him to know what was going on) without giving her anything in return. he was being selfish and cowardly and even though hadley was tearing up in front of him he felt much smaller and weaker than her. he was frozen, simply swallowing as she laughed, screaming on the inside about how much he screwed up but too worried he'd make it worse by saying anything or even reaching forward to give her a hug. this was really it. his tongue poked out over his lip, suddenly feeling like if he said something nothing would come out. "it's okay," he responded, his voice hoarse. stupid response. "call me, you know, if you need anything," he said a few moments after. with a quick rush of confidence, he stepped forward and placed his hand at the back of her head, his lips brushing against her forehead. with a weak smile and a pathetic wave, he finally turned around and left, resisting any urge he had to turn back around.
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